I knew I was a gay when I was about twelve (12) to thirteen (13) years old. I couldn’t just ignore it, I mean I didn’t know what the word gay meant until one of my cousin explained it to me when we were watching a movie- a straight movie by the way. From that day on, the word gay stuck on my head and I was literally attracted towards men. I just couldn’t resist on the internet. Whenever I surfed, I searched only of the gays. it was like I was hungry for the truth, the truth to finally reveal myself.
I have had many of the peep shows, watching naked men bathing- I did and I know I shouldn’t have done that but you never can top your temptations off.
“Gays are born,
My first experience had to do something with the seduction. Yes, I was seduced. When I was not more than ten (10), I had a bigger friend probably like a brother who was in the middle of his teen; we were heading back to our home from the school when he suddenly stopped me and told me to put his d*ck into my mouth. I didn’t know what to do! He forced me and told me that it would taste as good as a candy- and I did it. Heck, it wasn’t a candy and didn’t even taste like one. It remained a secret forever and was never talked about (I still meet him somewhere around).
I dated two (2) of my seniors when I was in the high school (discreetly). They were not gays but were bisexuals (most of the Bhutanese are bisexuals). After they graduated, I dated one of my batch mate, who was not more in the kind of a relationship but for sex. We didn’t hook up that far.
I graduated my high school and then met a Japanese gay via internet. We met in person and then started to hook up for even more. He was the best damn thing that ever happened to me. We dated for about two (2) weeks until it was his time to leave the country. And now I miss him so much.
I get numerous calls from the unseen ones whom I have met on the net (internet). We would just talk, tease each other on the phone and then wouldn’t really care to meet (conditions apply). The gayey days would just end like this in Bhutan.
“And I am still in the search for that someone who really owns my heart”.